today when i emailed you... and as usual.... we had some arguments over some tiny things....
and i really dont know why i couldnt keep my mouth shut?
in the past year.. .we only had chances to email for a few months... but why i couldn't just let those bad memories ..... go....
and treasure every single minute when we have chance to talk?
i m such a piece of shit...
sometimes i hate myself the way i m
but i cannot change even i really want to.....
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tonight i talked to my mom on phone, and as usual, we had some arguments over some tiny things......i really don't know why i could not keep my mouth shut. in last 14 years... .... ... i'm such a piece of shit...sometimes i hate myself the way i'm, but i can not change even i really want to......
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that's what i feel inside these few months... i dont know what i should do to change everything back and return to those happy days we had... we used to be happy with each other... and why i brought us to such a bad situation that nothing can be back? i regret everything... really.... i dont know what to do.... very depressed.... i m damn shit..... :(
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